Thinking of you, Dad
Dear Dad,
Today is Father’s Day.
It’s a day that allows me to pause during these breathless, busy days—and think of you, the one I miss so deeply.
It’s been eight years since you left on your long journey to be with God. I often wish I had written you more handwritten letters while you were still here to receive them. Time has flown by like a fast-forwarded film, but the memories remain—clear and vivid, just like before you left. Sometimes, it still feels like you’re in Korea with Mom.
Every time I arrived at the airport in Korea, you were there waiting at the front with Mom—your big smile and teary eyes always the first thing I saw. I could feel your quiet love in the way you watched me walk toward you, your youngest daughter who had gone far away in search of her own life. I always tried to walk with confidence and kindness, hoping you’d be proud of the woman I was becoming.
The day we found out your time was short was an unexpectedly clear spring day in May. You asked to see the green fields and take a walk, holding your daughters’ hands. Though speaking had become difficult, you held my hand as tightly as you could.
You remembered that I used to ask you to hold my hand tightly whenever we walked together. That made me feel safe.
To little me, you were the tallest and strongest tree—unshakable—giving comfort, shade, and a soft breeze with the gentle rustle of your leaves.
I still remember the day I saw you with your curved back, snowy white hair, tightly closed lips, and eyes filled with tears behind your glasses. The time had come. You left for your long journey.
But I still live in the words you left me:
“I’m always with you.”
Dad,
You were so good to me.
Your moon is growing fuller, and I’ll see you when it shines its brightest.
It’s Father’s Day today. I hope this letter reaches you, even if it’s late.
I miss you even more today.
I loved you, I love you, and I will always love you.
Your youngest daughter,
Hanna
P.S. I hope today was a meaningful day for every father—in presence or in memory—and that beautiful moments were made with children who will carry them forever.
Dad, 2016
Dad, unfinished work, 2017